While I was watching the Lifetime movie premier of Walking the Halls (I think that is what it was called) that starred the amazing Jamie Luner (Cindy from “Just The Ten Of Us” all grownz up# I was thinking back to high school when I was a little non-diva, a Diva in training if you will. Actually – I am being kind to my fragile ego, I wore Keds, GAP sweater sets, and Jordache, but didn’t we all? Please tell me we all did……. Well, my thinking led to that first time, that I realized that high school was over. That I was on the path to being an adult. That easy nights of riding around with friends, laughing and gossiping while watching SNICK were going to be what my Glory Days were. My biggest problem was no longer finding the Sambuca for the Diet Coke, it was figuring out what I was going to do.
I did not take the college route #shocking, I know, instead I took the I work at the mall full time route. I would like to go on record as saying I do NOT condone this, support it, or recommend it. But – that is what I did. I remember laying in bed one night listening to “Purple Rain”, what can I say I was born 10 years late, and thinking that this was it. This was all – course, thank baby Jesus I was wrong. However, it was a tough realization. I realized that high school was officially over. At this point things can go a few ways, college (nope), part time mall (it looked like it), or full time responsible big-girl job. Again, let’s thank the Diva that wanted to emerge, because I was so damn materialistic that I decided to get a full time job so I could have a new car – Ford Escort bitches – and all the tacky clothes I wanted.
Well, it’s not until just today that I had my next HUGE realization. Every decision I make (and have been making since entering the real world) greatly effects my life. Dating people when you KNOW it’s the wrong thing to do can take 4, COUNT THEM FOUR, years off your life….and looks. Taking the wrong job can ruin a career, and being spontaneous can lead you back on the right path. Ditching friendships can be fatal to your heart, but mending them can heal that. Putting family first will always be a comfort, but staying in o a Saturday night could be time lost.
When did this happen? At 18? At 24? At 30? When did relaying on MY thought process become so damn important. Because people not sure if you get it yet, but NO ONE should be relaying on MY thought process…..dude, not even me. I need a chaperone for God’s sake in a damn CVS so I don’t blow my pay check on lipstick.
If I could turn back time, you know what, I would have done the same exact thing. I very wise women explained this to me. See, even if I know what I know now back then, I would have still done the same shit, because I am who I am. We are who we are, that is why we do what we do.
Ah well, best to drink and not think about it to much then right?
That’s All Eve Lynne
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Another great blog!